On my walk today I had some time to think while I trudged along through the mud, in the rain.
I was thinking about Billy and my horsemanship. When I’m hurt it hurts my family as well. It hurts them financially and it hurts them by giving everyone more work than they can handle. Craig works full time, usually he has to work overtime. To have to come home and cook dinner is not easy.
I am a stay-at-home mom, when I’m not working at the coffee shop. It’s my job to cook, clean and take care of the household things. I like my job. I don’t like it when others have to take over my job. No one does it as well as I do. They just don’t.
I hate costing my family money. The horses cost money. Two broken arms cost money. Having surgery to repair one of my broken arms is very expensive. This too is a hardship for my family. We live on a very tight budget and when I add accidents to that budget it gets too tight. I become a burden to my family.
So many things to think about as I decide what I’m going to do and what will come first.