Rest In Peace Bonnie

It has been a very difficult last few weeks for Bonnie. She has become progressively more lame and in more pain. She has been laying down most of the day. The light went completely out of her eyes in the last week. I had to make the decision to let her go.

Please know that this was very difficult for me. I tried so hard to help her, but it just wasn’t meant to be. Her food was completely regulated. She had padded boots, 3 different pairs, she had a shed with lots of shavings (where she spent most of her time) and she had medicine and herbs and homeopathics and essential oils and lots of love and attention. There is only so much I could do for her and it turned out nothing I did was enough.

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Bonnie was the sweetest horse. She would give me kisses and snuggles. She nickered at me every time she saw me, even when she was laying down. She tried to show me how she could trot and play when she felt good. She loved getting her body work done by Heidi Chretien and if Heidi was working on another horse sometimes Bonnie would try to wiggle between them.

Bonnie loved being brushed and being fussed over. And she REALLY loved cookies. For the last few days she has had all the cookies she could eat. Today she got to go out and eat grass. She was in heaven and had the best day today.

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I want to say a huge THANK YOU to Dr. Sue Geske for coming all the way out to my house to help Bonnie cross over. She was so awesome. And another thank you to Rachel and Glenn for being there for moral support as I cried my eyes out. Bonnie went so peacefully.

I took Sky and Zorro out to say goodbye and Sky spent some time smelling Bonnie’s face. Zorro thoroughly smelled every inch of her. They just stayed by her eating the grass and going over to smell her some more. We couldn’t leave her out there because of predators so my Handsome Hubby buried her for me this evening. Poor Sky is still calling to her now and again. When I’m out there she follows me around like a puppy dog and wants lots of kisses and snuggles. I know it will take a few days for everyone to settle down.

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Losing a beloved pet is so hard. It’s just heart breaking, but I am so glad that we have the ability to end their pain in this way.

And I’m so glad that she no longer has to live in pain. Rest in Peace Bonnie.

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13 Comments

  1. Shirley

    Mindy, I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been thinking about Bonnie and wondering how things were going. You tried so hard and I’m sure Bonnie knew that. What a wonderful way to let her go. Hugs.

    1. LadybugFarm

      Thank you Shirley. I know Bonnie felt loved here. At the end she came over to me in the field and just laid her head on my shoulder. We had a nice long snuggle before the vet came.

  2. sandyeis

    awwww….soooooo sorry Mindy. I know you loved her dearly. Big hugs & love to you. Cry all the tears you need to.

    I am facing similar with Peach. Her legs are all messed up now from years of compensating from catastrophic injury at age 4. Winters are hell for her & I do not want her to proceed to falling more & not getting up easily. She is so healthy in summer & can walk & trot a little too & takes herself a run now & then when I am at the gate & she wants to go out with me. I am brokenhearted but I do not want to keep her alive only to face deterioration & pain. She told me a few years back the she didn’t want to do many more winters.

    So Blessings to you & know that I understand. Hug your other babies & light her a candle. she is free of pain & in Horsey Heaven.

    MUCH LOVE!!!!! Sandy

    1. LadybugFarm

      Thank you so much Sandy! My heart breaks for you and Peach. Though I’ve never met her I feel that I know her. You both are in my thoughts and prayers.

      It’s definitely been a rough couple of days and I know that only time will heal. Sky is no longer calling for her which is helping. It also helps to have the others to care for.

      The baby I take care of was so so sweet yesterday and kept coming up to me to give me giant bear hugs. It’s amazing how intuitive babies are. She knew I was sad and that hugs would help. That was very good for my heart.

      Again, thank you for your kind words!!

  3. Kathy Eggers

    It is so very good that her friends got to see her and that she did not just ‘disappear’ Which is so traumatic. Thank you for allowing them the time and access. they do understand. My sympathy to you,

    1. LadybugFarm

      Zorro and Sky were right over the fence from where we were with Bonnie. I wanted her to lay down in the grass at the end and not be in the dirt on the track so we did it in the field where she got to graze for her last few hours. Sky watched the entire thing. It was so sweet to watch them say their own good byes.

  4. perri

    Oh Mindy!
    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You really gave your all for Bonnie. No horse was ever better loved! What a sweet, kind face she had. Hugs from Helena

    1. LadybugFarm

      It was so hard to watch her struggle every single day. When my best friend suggested writing on the calendar all her good days and compare them to her bad days I realized that she NEVER had good days. It had been months since her last good FULL day. She would have good hours, but no good days. That is what helped me make the decision.

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